🌑 DAY 5: I’m Still Here. And I’m Not Hiding Anymore.

The Return After Disappearance

There’s something sacred about making it to the other side.

Not with fireworks.

Not with applause.

But with a calm breath… and eyes that have seen too much to ever be naive again.

I don’t know how many times I broke.

How many nights I laid there, cold and unknown to the world.

How many days I almost gave up — not because I was weak, but because I was done screaming into silence.

But I’m still here.

Not polished.

Not perfect.

Not enlightened.

Just… here.

And honestly?

That’s enough.

That’s everything.

I used to chase healing like it was a destination.

Used to want love to fix me.

Used to hope spirituality would finally make me feel safe.

But now?

I don’t chase.

I listen.

I rest.

I create.

I don’t wear masks anymore to please the spiritual world.

I don’t pretend to be positive when I’m pissed.

I don’t silence my truth just to stay likable.

I’ve been to the underworld and back.

I’ve carried shame, rage, grief, and guilt through the fire.

And now I walk with it — not as a curse, but as a crown.

I’m not here to impress.

I’m here to reflect.

And if you see yourself in me — in the survival, in the struggle, in the still-standingness —Then maybe this post isn’t just mine.

Maybe it’s yours too.

✨ I’m not hiding anymore.

Not from judgment.

Not from failure.

Not from myself.

This is my face.

This is my voice.

This is my frequency.

And if it’s too much for some?

They were never meant to sit with this kind of truth anyway.

🌕 And now I ask YOU:

What part of yourself have you kept hidden?

What would happen if you let it breathe?

Who might you become if you stop shrinking to survive?

Because the truth is…

You don’t need to shine perfectly.

You just need to stop dimming.

You don’t need to be ready.

You just need to stay.

I did.

So can you.

🗝 Ten Soul Keys.

Five Days.

One Truth:

You made it through.

You’re still here.

And that matters.

Much love,

Patrick 💛