🧝♂️ "SoulQuest: Day 4 – Avatar & Archetype"
- pvdbovenkamp

- Aug 7
- 3 min read
“You didn’t just pick a character. You picked a mirror.”

I’ve played a lot of roles.Tanks. Healers. DPS. Support.But it wasn’t until recently I started asking… why?
Why am I drawn to certain archetypes?Why do I feel more at home in some roles than others?And what does that say about who I am — or who I’ve been trying to be?
🎮 The Avatar is the Mirror
The character you choose says more about you than you think.
It’s not random.It’s not “just meta.”It’s often an unconscious expression of your inner world.
🛡️ The Tank
The protector. The shield. The frontliner.
Often chosen by those who carry deep responsibility, or a desire to be seen as strong — even when they’re not.
Sometimes it’s about control…Sometimes it’s about not wanting anyone else to get hurt like you were.
“If I take the damage, no one else has to suffer.”
✨ The Healer
The lifeline. The caretaker. The support.
Chosen by those who feel the pain of others deeply — or who wish someone had healed them.
It can come from pure compassion… or from unhealed trauma masked as service.
You might be saving others to feel worthy of being kept.
“If I can keep everyone alive, maybe I’ll matter enough not to be left.”
🧠 The Controller
The strategist. The manipulator of flow. The shaper of the environment.
Chosen by those who see the bigger picture — who feel more than what’s visible.
Adaptable. Flexible. Sometimes invisible — but always influencing.
This role isn’t about dominance — it’s about vision.
“If I can influence the battlefield, I can change the story.”
I resonate with this one deeply.Controllers aren’t bound to one way — they become the way.And maybe, just maybe, I chose that role because I was always adapting — to survive, to be safe, to stay aware.
And now?
I choose it because I finally see the power in it.
💉 The Support
The buffer. The enabler. The one who holds the team together.
Often drawn to by those who feel unseen unless they’re useful.
They give boosts, vision, speed — often from the background.
They carry the energy of the connector — helping others shine.
“If I make everyone better, maybe I’ll finally feel like I belong.”
Unhealed, they may overextend, self-abandon, or feel forgotten.Healed, they’re orchestrators of harmony, holding the team’s frequency in balance.
💥 The Damage Dealer (DPS)
The focused blade. The fast hands. The high risk, high reward soul.
Usually picked by those who want to prove their worth, fast and loud.
“Top frag,” “MVP,” “Who carried?” — this archetype thrives on recognition.
But deep down? They often carry wounds around being enough.
“If I can do more damage than everyone else, maybe they’ll see me. Maybe I’ll matter.”
Unhealed DPS chases validation through numbers.Healed DPS? Purposeful firepower — destructive only to illusions.
🧙♂️ Bonus: The Hybrid / Wildcard
Some players pick hybrids — off-meta, strange builds, flex roles.
This reflects the path of the shapeshifter, the outsider, or even the seer.
They don’t want to be defined. They want to discover.
Often mirrors those of us walking between roles, or outside the system entirely.
“I’m not here to fit in. I’m here to reflect what’s missing.”
🪞 Why It Matters
The role you play reflects your soul’s pattern.
It reveals:
What you seek.
What you’re healing.
What you are — or are becoming.
This isn’t about analyzing for the sake of it.This is about remembering who you are through who you play.
Because you don’t just pick characters…You channel them.
🌀 Your Turn: Reflect on Your Avatar
Ask yourself:
What roles am I drawn to in games? Why?
What emotional need does that role fulfill?
Is it about strength? Safety? Healing? Attention? Visibility?
Who am I being — and who am I afraid to be?
Gaming gives you the chance to embody other versions of yourself…But it also gives you the chance to find the real one.
📅 Tonight @ 19:00, I go live.
But I’m not just picking a character.
I’m revealing a piece of myself.And maybe… so are you.
The avatar is the mirror.The archetype is the soul in disguise. The controller? That’s me — adapting, shifting, architecting.




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